I was in a 40 year abusive relationship and marriage. I then tracked down my first love from age 13. We reunited and were together ten years. He was killed in a tragic incident while we were on our boat. He got stuck in rough waters and I couldn’t help him. When he was rescued, he stood up and had a cardiac arrest.
I’ve been struggling to get past all of it for three years. I lived the next bad thing hypervigilancy. I called my Dr one day after not leaving my house for two months. I was scared. He started me on Ketamine therapy. I ingest the Ketamine and have a therapist with me for the entire two hours. We record the sessions so I can listen to what came out. There’s a lot. The treatment is working to unpack all the trauma, grief, and fear.
At 68 years old, I just got my first tattoo that says “let go”. I’m letting go of the trauma patterns finally. I wish my husband and love of my life; that’s husband who died, would be here to see me. I’m not catastrophizing and I can handle whatever comes now.
I don’t know that I could have done this without the Ketamine to unearth the trauma and recognize the triggers and patterns. I would highly recommend it.
Hypervigilence is a beast that lurks in imaginary shadows- you may be more selective about what you share, MK, but it is both brave and so encouraging for you to bare your struggles and successes as you grow 😍
MK, I was just explaining my hypervigilance to a friend recently. These past few months have been hard for me and even before that I was always waiting for the other shoe to drop. I never felt deserving of anything good. It always had to be offset by something bad. Therapy and all the things you listed off help. Thank you for sharing.
I was in a 40 year abusive relationship and marriage. I then tracked down my first love from age 13. We reunited and were together ten years. He was killed in a tragic incident while we were on our boat. He got stuck in rough waters and I couldn’t help him. When he was rescued, he stood up and had a cardiac arrest.
I’ve been struggling to get past all of it for three years. I lived the next bad thing hypervigilancy. I called my Dr one day after not leaving my house for two months. I was scared. He started me on Ketamine therapy. I ingest the Ketamine and have a therapist with me for the entire two hours. We record the sessions so I can listen to what came out. There’s a lot. The treatment is working to unpack all the trauma, grief, and fear.
At 68 years old, I just got my first tattoo that says “let go”. I’m letting go of the trauma patterns finally. I wish my husband and love of my life; that’s husband who died, would be here to see me. I’m not catastrophizing and I can handle whatever comes now.
I don’t know that I could have done this without the Ketamine to unearth the trauma and recognize the triggers and patterns. I would highly recommend it.
Be happy. You deserve it. Love to you. ♥️🩵♥️
This is wonderful.
Always an inspiration! ❤️
Hypervigilence is a beast that lurks in imaginary shadows- you may be more selective about what you share, MK, but it is both brave and so encouraging for you to bare your struggles and successes as you grow 😍
Yes. It seems so real. So glad you found a loving grown-up boyfriend. You deserve it.
MK, I was just explaining my hypervigilance to a friend recently. These past few months have been hard for me and even before that I was always waiting for the other shoe to drop. I never felt deserving of anything good. It always had to be offset by something bad. Therapy and all the things you listed off help. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you ❤️